Glow by Lady E

  It didn’t look like a big decision. Just paint. Watercolors.  Something small enough to say, this should be fine. I didn’t think about it too much. Didn’t analyze. Didn’t pause the way I usually do. I chose quickly. Because I was missing these colors.  The price was okay.  Cheap compared to my usual watercolors.  Cheap and convenient because I can choose the exact colors. I believed that  this will work. And at first, nothing seemed wrong. Until I started. The paint didn’t respond. It didn’t flow. Didn’t soften. Didn’t listen. And suddenly— something that should have felt effortless felt resistant. Heavy. Frustrating. Off. I tried again. Maybe it’s just me.  Still the same result.  So I stopped. Not because I didn’t want to paint. But because something in me refused to keep going when everything felt misaligned. And that’s when it became clear. It wasn’t just the paint. It was the decision. The quiet moment where I said yes to something that did...