Glow by Lady E

There’s confidence that’s loud.  Confidence that you can spot right away in a crowded room. Confidence that screams even from miles away.  And then there’s quiet confidence.  Confidence that doesn’t need to perform.  It simply exists.  I have learned the first type of confidence through years of training in declamation and oration.  But the second type?  That came slowly.  Even now I’m still learning it.  Still trying to be comfortable in it.  Soft confidence is buying flowers for yourself. No occasion.  Just because you know you deserve flowers that day.  It’s being able to arrange those flowers however you want to when you get home. It’s buying that pretty notebook. And actually using it.  Not saving it for a special event.  Not waiting until something worthy happens to be written.  Or finally using the pretty stickers with the confidence that more will come… It’s reading alone in a cafe.  And being comple...

  How many women wait until they’re thinner, richer, prettier, or more successful before allowing themselves to enjoy life? I was one of those women.  I’ll wait ‘til I buy this for my son before treating myself.  I’ll wait to finish all the orders before I rest.  I’ll wait until my face clears up before I wear a blush.  This journey is teaching me a lot of things.  And one of those things is that I don’t need to earn delight.  I stopped auditioning the day I realized life wasn’t a panel of judges. No one was holding up scorecards. The only person waiting for me… was me. And that was a big revelation to me.  It was like one of those moments where you go, “why didn’t I think of that sooner” Yeah.. Why didn’t I think of that sooner? I was programmed through circumstances over the years to put myself last.  I guess there’s also that part of society that tells you to think of others first.  I grew up that way.  Serve others first.  ...