Glow by Lady E

  I didn’t always believe this. Not in a loud, obvious way. But in small decisions. Quiet ones. The kind no one else sees. There was always a pause. I remember exactly what that pause felt like. I held something in my hands—something I had wanted for a long time. I had waited for it. Looked at it more than once. Thought about it more than I would admit. And when it was finally in front of me— I hesitated. Not because I couldn’t have it. But because something in me said— not yet. As if there was some invisible point I had to reach first. Some version of myself that was more ready. More deserving. So I put it back. And in that moment, I didn’t question it. It felt normal. That quiet withholding. That instinct to delay something I already knew I wanted. I did that in other ways too. Choosing later. Choosing less. Telling myself, this is enough. More often than not, it wasn’t. There was always that ‘what if.’ It was just what I had learned...