Hi Ladies! I'm still here but I've been sick since last Sunday and I'm being monitored for dengue. I really pray I don't have dengue. I'll try and post some stuff when I feel a bit better. I've been keeping up with your blogs so keep 'em coming please as they keep me company.
Come sit with me for a while. I have my journal open, and tonight I’ve been thinking about something I suspect I do more often than I realize. I turn healing into another thing I need to accomplish. I want to know when I’ll be over something. When I’ll stop thinking about it. When something that hurt will finally stop hurting. When I’ll feel like myself again. And somewhere along the way, healing quietly becomes another deadline. Another invisible date on a calendar. Another thing I can somehow be late for. But maybe healing doesn’t work particularly well under project management. Maybe there are things I will understand quickly and things I’ll have to revisit again and again. Maybe I’ll feel completely fine one day and unexpectedly tender the next. That doesn’t mean I’ve gone backwards. It means I’m still moving through it. I remember one day, many years ago, when I had fibromyalgia. I lived in constant pain. I just couldn’t get a good day. And then one day, in the office...
get well soon hun
ReplyDeletethanks rhain!
ReplyDeleteI hope you'll be well soon! Pray a lot dear, i know you'll get better!
ReplyDeletetake care,
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thank you shineyglam!
ReplyDeleteAwwww, no wonder why. Hope you'll get well and hope it's not dengue, take care.
ReplyDeletei read that you're battling an autoimmune disease. what type? i wish you well!
ReplyDelete@kitten - thanks Kitten. I sure hope to be back in no time!
ReplyDelete@meedge - it's called polymyositis. it's quite debilitating. most people who have this lose the use of their arms and legs after some time. they also have difficulty breathing, swallowing, etc. Some people who have this abroad, advised me through their blogs, to buy an electric toothbrush and forego brushing my hair as these will be impossible to do eventually. Of course, I ignored them. = ) I do have an electric toothbrush though as it helps with my sensitive gums and I have curly hair so I only need to comb it when it's wet. thank you so much for your concern meedge!